Love letters...

A few weeks ago, out of the blue, I pulled out two sheets of computer paper. I drew a picture of a car on one and wrote, "Dear Drew, I love you. You are a good son and brother. Love, Mom." I wrote something similar on Jazzy's and drew a flower on hers.

A few weeks later, Jazzy told me she needed to make me a card with tape and paper. She cut the paper into a little rectangle, put some tape on it, made a few marks on it and put it in an envelope. I asked her what it said and she said, "Dear Mom, You are such a good Mommy."

Here's the card:

Ladies, I will be honest and tell you that I had to ask the Lord to help me enjoy my children. I always loved them and I knew they were precious, but I was wishing the time away. After all, I had a degree. I wasn't meant to be just a wife and mother. I wanted more out of life.

I heard a testimony from a woman at church who always dreaded summer break when her children would be home full-time. She was envious of the mothers who looked forward to having time to spend with their children. She asked the Lord to change her heart, and He did.

I am the type of person who feels that if the Lord can do it for someone else, He can do it for me. ("I now realize how true it is that God does not show favoritism..." Acts 10:34) So I prayed and God has been faithful.

I can now say I look forward to spending every day with my children. I don't long for a career and I don't long for "me" time. If serving my family is all I ever do in life, it will have been a life well lived.

It warmed my heart to hear Jazzy read her letter. She gives back all the love I give her, and then some. I don't regret a single second I invest in my children. The returns are unbeatable!